“I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you.”
Psalm 32:8
This past weekend I splurged, and I mean badly on a lot of things. You tell me to social distance and I apparently considered that a shopping spree! Oops! But as I made my first order of Young Living Essential oils a thought crossed my mind. For years I have told myself “oils may work for other people, but it’s just not for me, I don’t think it will do anything for me.” And then I realized something, there have been times in my life that I’ve said the same thing about God. Have you ever been there before? Where you know and believe it to be true for someone else but you can’t quite believe it to be true for yourself?
I struggle with this every day, my biggest struggles being the fear of missing out, the fear of rejection, and the fear of not being enough, and boy can those lies do a number on your heart. I think my fears have lead to a lot of disappointments in my life. Whether that be broken friendships, relationships, or missed opportunities, it’s all happened. Most recently that fear of missing out and feeling like I wasn’t good enough to be a part of people’s friend circles led me to leaving GSM which I absolutely love. Not a day goes by that I don’t regret that decision and how frustrating it is that I once again believed the lies of the enemy instead of the truth of Gods word. The enemy is great at telling you what you’re not good at and not worthy of. There’s not a moment that passes that he won’t try and weasel his way into your heart to whisper lies to get you to turn away from God.
But here’s the truth, God wants your heart. He wants your hurts, failed friendships/relationships, mistakes and worries and He wants you to lay it all before Him. You ARE worthy. You ARE loved. You ARE enough. There’s nothing that our God can’t to for us. But He does give us the choice of whether or not to believe it. I’ve seen the things I’ve surrendered to Him, turn into surprises of a life time. I’ve seen my hurt heart be willing to open up again because God has someone better I’m mind for me. I’ve seen my fears about finances turn into blessings that I can’t even explain. But most importantly I’ve felt God working in my heart. I’m no longer as anxious and stressed and worried anymore because God has shown me that He hears my prayers and has answered them in His timing. I know he can do the same for you too!
In a world full of the unknown right now, I hope this encourages you to keep on going! Let’s turn our eyes to the One who loves us most and put our trust in Him.
This week I heard a new worship song called “Graves into Gardens” and I love it. God turns all our graves (hurts, habits, and hang ups) into something beautiful, just like a garden. So of course, I had to end this post with a time of worship. Enjoy!
